Loving someone makes it really hard to make decisions sometimes, or in my case all the time.
For some time the relationship between my Master and I is very slow, we don't interact, we really don't talk and I feel as if I am getting the boot but he feels bad one way or the other letting me go. I wonder if he knows that by having me just hanging on a string is doing a bit more harm than good.
I have no idea where we are going with our relationship, what is happening, if he is still my owner, if he even loves me. It is just a bit confusing at the moment and I don't know where to go from here, I am at a halt.
Since nothing have been said I took it upon myself to begin dating, yup, I have a date tonight - nothing serious, I just feel I need to go out and have some fun as well. Do I look at it as if I am cheating on my Master? at first I did but I figure that if I don't get intimate with the guy is not cheating.
It was extremely hard making such decision just because I am so in love with him that I can't think or be with anyone else other than him, but at the same time I am feeling abandoned, not cared for, and his interest is on the floor.
I am confused, what can I say, he says he loves me but he doesn't show it...is just a bunch of mixed signals
For some time the relationship between my Master and I is very slow, we don't interact, we really don't talk and I feel as if I am getting the boot but he feels bad one way or the other letting me go. I wonder if he knows that by having me just hanging on a string is doing a bit more harm than good.
I have no idea where we are going with our relationship, what is happening, if he is still my owner, if he even loves me. It is just a bit confusing at the moment and I don't know where to go from here, I am at a halt.
Since nothing have been said I took it upon myself to begin dating, yup, I have a date tonight - nothing serious, I just feel I need to go out and have some fun as well. Do I look at it as if I am cheating on my Master? at first I did but I figure that if I don't get intimate with the guy is not cheating.
It was extremely hard making such decision just because I am so in love with him that I can't think or be with anyone else other than him, but at the same time I am feeling abandoned, not cared for, and his interest is on the floor.
I am confused, what can I say, he says he loves me but he doesn't show it...is just a bunch of mixed signals
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