My Collar

I can't wear my DCS meter because it needs to be attached to the chest....

Guess what?

My collar is attached to the chest, and I completely refuse to remove it at the moment, not until I am ready to do so...

Last night I played around a bit to see if I could change the attachment spot and it did not work, so I guess I am going to be without a meter, so I guess I will have to use one of my alts to fight in Thule.

I really don't care about the collar of the rest of the AV's ...Cielo, Kryy..etc, I am going to take their collar off, but when it comes to Punky and Aliexx...their collar was/is like my wedding band, I don't have the heart to remove it yet...even if he logs in and releases his name of my collar, I am not ready to go there.

Maybe in time I will...

but for now...

I can't

From SL to RL
Punky still in love.

Disaster Date

Why do I bother even trying to go out with anyone else at the moment is beyond me!  Even though it was a double date and I was not alone still made me feel like shit!

I don't know if anyone else will understand how I feel but I really felt as if I was cheating on my Master, OMG, what a horrible feeling!! Feeling guilty as if I was betraying him, and in all honesty I don't want to feel like that ever again.

I kept thinking about him through the entire night, moments of our times together kept popping into my head, I was so very distant.  We went to a Chinese restaurant and after to a club which I was glad about, the loud music helped for conversation not to take place.

I can't help the way I feel, how much I love him...I can't help it if my mind and body does not allow me to be with anyone else...Ladies and Gentleman this chiqui fell in love and she did so very hard!!