Great Feeling

Sometimes when in love we give the person attention, we nurture them, we find every given possible way to make them feel loved, cared for, and of course constantly work with them to improve the relationship.

Since it is great to feel loved, respected, appreciated, and to know we have our better half backing us up 100% in everything we set out to do, and decisions we make, good or bad, knowing that someone will always be there to support us through thick and thin, not judge us for who we really are, accept and love our faults/imperfections as much as they appreciate our perfections and success...
It is what I wanted to give and gave in my last "relationship" affair.

Unfortunately there are people who believe because a person gives 100% of themselves to another and the relationship that they have become the center of their universe and probably do not have a life aside from them.

People are only as important in our lives as we make them out to be, the importance that we give that individual.  A person only matters if you make them matter...A person only have power over you if you allow them to.

Of course it is painful when any relationship ends, specially when there are feelings involved, but one thing probably this person forgot about me is the strength I have, the self love!
I love myself!
I respect myself!
and I appreciate the woman that I am!
It is the reason why I am able to love so deeply, because love is in me!

in the famous words of Frank Crane
"You will be deceived if you trust too much, but you will live in torment if you don't trust enough"
needless to say, I trusted too much.
but i also believe
"is better to have loved and lost than not to have loved at all"

I was hurting...
But for two days now a light went on!

The aches, the pain, the empty feeling have been replaced and almost non-existent.

What a great feeling!

an off day

I really wanted to log into SL today *pouts* came home, cooked, lurked a bit, answered a few comments from the TMI Tuesday blog which I love.  I actually play every Tuesday but in my RL blog.  Yes, I have two blogs, this is more like my SL blog mixed with my RL...the other has no mention of my SL. 

Been feeling bleh, crying on and off today, might be just a hormonal thing, who knows... 

Yes, I am tired and with very good reasons, was sick for a few days, adjusting to public transportation, and of course as we all know RL always comes first!

Yes, I want to spend some time in SL, do some window shopping and actual shopping, see what other new things they have and now with Christmas approaching they are having tons of decorations...hmm? makes me wonder, how do I decorate our home?  I guess I will figure that out on Friday! I still have the socks with our names, yaaay, we have a chimney so it is peeeeeerrrfect!!!

Getting a bit excited here...going to bed, need to get up extra early!  Tired, exhausted, with very little time for things I want to do, but I feel sooo good inside, a sense of peace and satisfaction :)


From SL to RL with Love
me

Multi-Tasking & Priorities

I often get asked by friends how I manage to be in SL while doing chores, cooking, laundry, work 40 hrs a week, pick up my kids from work, meditate, get enough sleep at night and squeeze in extra curriculum activities that comes in between.

All I can say is that I manage well and able to accomplish every single task I set out to do.  I do have to write things down, certain things of course.  I am sorta of a perfectionist, when I do something I have to make sure is done properly and I aim to get it done the first time, I follow Stephen Kings' motto "if you don't have time to do something right the first time, where are you going to find the time to fix it".

I don't have much to fix around the house since I am up at 5:30 everyday and make sure the house is up to standards before I leave, my bed is made and the mess I make each morning looking for clothes is placed back where it belongs.  When I get home after working my 8 hours I log into SL while I am cooking, dusting, probably watching T.V at the same time *grins wide* and after all is said and done...I make sure the kitchen is mopped each night before I go to bed...Hey, I was raised in the Dominican Republic we mop twice a day over there and dust everyday, some habits just stayed with me...that's not all, hehe, I love the smell of clean fresh sheets and pillow case so I like to change them before I go to bed, I sleep naked and the feel of the softness all over my body ummmm priceless!

My time is pretty much all distributed through an entire day of running around but I drop everything in a microsecond when I hear that special ring tone from him, whether it is a text or an email...doesn't matter what it is.  I have canceled appointments, arrived late to work, left work late, rearranged meetings at work and even had them postponed them because my Master is logged in.  He is most important, the priceless feeling my sheets give me at night can't compare to the feeling he gives me (wow, I am comparing him to sheets).
Any time and chance I get to be with him I make sure my schedule is completely clear, while in SL he gets distracted probably chatting or in RL with other programs, watch a movie or a show, little does he know (he will find out now) is that I am running around doing the same things at home..haha.  All that counts is that I am with him, spending time with him...He is my priority.

Returning Home

When RL kicks in SL becomes just that...second.  We all have our responsibilities and some more than others, for one reason or another it makes it difficult in our busy schedule to set time to splurge on the things we want to do.  In some cases we are doing so many things at once that we have to set a schedule to fit all of our activities and dedicate time to each and everyone of them.

I really thought it would be a long time for me to see him again.  The last time we spent time together in SL was in February and unexpectedly on May 31st he shows up :)

Man I was happy, still happy, he comes in every time he gets a chance to spend time with me, of course I try to make his time here enjoyable, he sails and explores Port Charles or Jabberwock, maybe do some shopping, role-play, explore; sometimes I go with him but there are times I stay behind.

Don't get me wrong, I enjoy been with him and I would love to suck up all of his time but he doesn't get to enjoy SL as much as I do and there are things he probably wants to do on his own and we are on IM and never too far from each other.  I enjoy seen him happy, content, comfortable and relaxed...he is after all my Master, my Owner and with that said his happiness means the world to me.

Through thick and thin I will stand by him, not only as his woman but also as his slave, I swore to protect him, to love him, to desire him, to obey him, to be faithful, and above all respect him.

I have no secrets for him, I am an open book in his eyes and until now through distance and time nobody knows me like he does and I wouldn't want it any other way :)

I love you mi Capitan.