Showing posts with label Denial. Show all posts
Showing posts with label Denial. Show all posts

Thursday, December 20, 2012

Moments, Conversations with Friends & 1 More thing!


I was spending some quality time with an old friend yesterday :) I do have to say he is one of my Best Friends, SL & RL!!
It is always nice seen him, and talking to him, aside from Dito of course, hehe...

In all the talking and conversations we had and everything we have shared in almost 4 years...wow, I can't believe is been 4 years!  Time just flies!
anyways
in our conversation we discussed how people can be in SL, while it is hard to think that "he" is like that, I know most of the things my friend was saying are true...aside from been a man, he is older, he has been in SL since the darn thing was created just about!  I don't know, he probably was there for the inauguration! LMAO (i am so gonna get a spanking for saying that!)

Lets be real, NOBODY just gets up and gives up SL! and when they have they always come back, maybe not with the same avatar, but the fact is they come back!

So, with that said...1 more thing

To YOU!!
Mr. Privateer...
Sad how you could not be around for me in SL, 
how it was going to be a long time since you would return.  
How sad you have to lie, or even have to hide,
All you had to do was to be honest and say the truth!
Can't you see, when you lie to me the only one you fool is yourself!
I really wanted to believe there was a difference between you and the rest, sad, I was just fooling myself!

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For all the people in SL that go around hiding alts,
I feel sorry for all of you that you feel you must hide,
you must have been very bad with your old avatar
if you think with a new one things will be different,
think again...the things that you must change.
Is not the old life, or your old avatar,
is the conflicts you create with all of your lies!
the problem is not second life but your real life,
our avatars are only expressions of who we really are,
We all go there to create and live the life we don't have and lack...
So when you create, or bring an old AV from the hiding
Check yourself first, because you will be going back to your old habits!

From SL to RL with Love
Punky

P.S.
you are sad...

Friday, December 7, 2012

I can't wait....

I can't wait for time to pass by,
I can't wait for all just to be a memory,
I can't wait for the day i log in and it doesn't hurt
really, I can't wait...

I can't wait to think of him and feel nothing
I can't wait to wake up and not look at my email hoping to hear from him
I can't wait for the day when I wake up and he is not in my thoughts
really, I can't wait...

I can't wait to stop hurting,
I can't wait to stop crying,
I can't wait to stop loving him,
really, I can't wait

I can't wait...
for all of it just to be a beautiful memory

Really...I can't wait








From SL to RL
Asvid Aravir

Thursday, November 15, 2012

My Collar

I can't wear my DCS meter because it needs to be attached to the chest....

Guess what?

My collar is attached to the chest, and I completely refuse to remove it at the moment, not until I am ready to do so...

Last night I played around a bit to see if I could change the attachment spot and it did not work, so I guess I am going to be without a meter, so I guess I will have to use one of my alts to fight in Thule.

I really don't care about the collar of the rest of the AV's ...Cielo, Kryy..etc, I am going to take their collar off, but when it comes to Punky and Aliexx...their collar was/is like my wedding band, I don't have the heart to remove it yet...even if he logs in and releases his name of my collar, I am not ready to go there.

Maybe in time I will...

but for now...

I can't



From SL to RL
Punky still in love.

Saturday, August 13, 2011

My Old Blog

I had a blog and it had to be canceled, some of the information in it was a bit damaging to someone I love or at least to his marriage, devious people got a hold of it and tried using it to cause anguish and pain...I had poems, pictures, little confessions, the way I felt about certain things but it had to be erased to protect other people other than myself.
I was regretting having written certain things and even the pictures I added that were used to blackmail me and him, thinking back and sorting out my feelings - I should not have any regrets nor feel guilty, shit happens and sometimes when it hits the fan we must own up to our mistakes, yet it is easier to erase and deny things than to confront them.

here is looking at ya kid