Friends :) & The Travel Bug

Peter, Georges, Igor

When I was stuck all alone in the Netherlands with nobody to talk to, text, or even email my friend Georges was there to listen, to bug me, make fun of me and the best part of it all they tried so very hard to make me happy and smile!!!

I met Georges in SL in 2008 and we have been friends ever since.  Although he lives in Belgium we have managed to meet up and enjoy each others company, trust me, we have fun when we all get together, the sarcastic sense of humor we share is ridiculously funny in our own sick way.

Peter although I met him recently we really acted as if we knew each other for ever, he was my tour guide and walked me all over Antwerpen telling me the history of just about each statue, street, and building we came in contact with...he bought me Gelato when we were done the tour :) so kewl!

I met Igor in 2008 when Georges came to visit the states, we sure had fun in the back seat of that car and the laughs are still endless each time we take a trip through memory lane...he sure is something else, fun and funny :) *raises her invisible glass of dark beer* here is to ya Igor!!!

I was invited to Belgium...I really liked the city but somehow it was so boring!! We had fun while we were walking around the city, taking pictures and talking crap but once we were back in the house it was like ~what do we do now?~
BTW...Did you know they did check points in the city? they just stop each and every car that goes by and do drug and alcohol test on them, come on...are you serious?! yeah, of course I agree with the no drinking and driving rule but shit, you know what we call that back in the states? cops with nothing to do! like in the small cities/towns when you call 911 and about 7 cruisers show up to your house...mhm, something like that.

I am considering taking that vacation, geez I really need to get away and organize my thoughts and ideas, no..really I do :)

Next year is going to be extremely busy for me, I intent to travel each and every time I get a chance, withing the US and outside the US, I love to travel! that darn travel bug bit me and I am just so infected...sooooo organizing myself and planning ahead, everything should go smoothly and according to plan :)

Amsterdam, NL

Ballerina

My cousin Karina Espaillat played Cinderella using this shoes :)
February 2011

Eating a Guayaba

My favorite kind of fruit...at least one of them. Cereza, Chinola, Manzana de Oro, Coco de Agua...are among the fruits I will feast on when I visit the Dominican Republic...

When I was a little girl I remember climbing trees to get the fruits at the very top, don't know why but the biggest and the sweetest ones were the most impossible ones to get, you either would need a stick to reach them once you've climbed to the highest point or bring some rocks and hope you had good aim *sighs remembering those wonderful days*

We had what they call Guayaba Injerta; bigger and sweeter than the rest, my grandpa always made sure his trees gave the best fruits in the neighborhood, he was sorta of a show off and we loved him for that *giggles*
I love the smell of fresh fruits...and the taste!


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Dr's Office

waiting

I don't like waiting at all! Sitting at the Doctors office felt like forever, 3 hours!! Are you kidding me?

I wanted to have a productive afternoon, yes, my health is priority but dang, waiting 3 hrs to hear what I already knew felt like a waste of time :(

Why can't we take a little survey before we are seen that way we just go straight to the point, oh and keep the personal questions to a minimum, I felt as if I was getting the third degree and some of the questions he already had the answer for if he only cared enough to check his files from previous visits...I don't get it, is it just me probably getting impatient...but I bet when you pay for expensive medical and you get shitty care it will piss you off just as much, I feel as they don't value our time, we just sit there looking at each other and most complaining, I keep quiet because whether you complain or not is not going to change the situation, he is going to take his sweet ass time and you just gonna have to wait your turn, don't like it? Change Doctors!!! Is as simple as that...even though is hard it is something I am considering, I can always go back if I don't like the change...

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Random Thoughts

I feel much safer now, my pics, my blog are protected and I feel there is no way someone distasteful will come along and try to use me once again to hurt others.

It is really a frustration not knowing why would someone use up their precious time to get to other people, it has been almost 2 weeks since I heard from those vindictive assholes...all I can say I am glad it is over.

For a long time their negativity was inflicting much damage to our relationship...more in the matter of making me feel guilty for loving him, for having this intense feelings which consumes me from the inside out...but lately having so much time in my hands and thinking clearly when people see a good thing going and they can't have it jealousy will strike!! I am not letting go, in two more weeks is going to be two years since I have been with my Master, yes, we are in a long distance relationship but there are ways of going around that...I have been able to manage.  Our relationship is young and still evolving, I don't want to rush a good thing and better days will come.

I have plans to travel and be able to spend time with him, trying to get myself together here and plan things the right way, although not everything goes according to plan most of the time and I learned that the hard way most often times when you set out to do something chances are if you plan ahead you will make it happen, I speak for myself at least...when I set out to do something best believe I am going to see it through one way or the other...it might take me time but when I have a goal in mind it is all I can see :)

Never take your eyes of your goal :) or your path

Crayola

The smell of an open Crayola box...ummmm how wonderful!

This box was bought only because of the retired crayola crayons! and of course the wonderful scent *takes a sniff*

Makes me wonder what other colors did they retired to the Crayola Crayon Hall of Fame?  must find out

At Home

I don't get easily bored but staying in 24/7 is really getting the best out of me...is not like I don't have places to go but once I am there I can't even concentrate!! What is wrong with me?

I can come up with a few ideas; my heart and head are somewhere else.  Where you might wonder? with my Master...where else? I know we both have much to do and accomplish before we can be together, is not like I can pick up and just go...much has to be done, at least I know from my behalf that is the case.

I finally broke down and asked him for help, boy oh boy was I afraid of his answer...when you have been independent for so long and never needed the assistance or help from anyone else is rather hard to just come out and ask I do have some pride you know ;P
All I can say is that times are hard and I got hit with a curve ball...I was always prepared for rainy days but for some reason this time around I was caught by surprise or better yet I was not as prepared as I thought I was.

One good thing is that I saw him briefly last night and we spoke *grins wide* that man does not know the impact he has on me, VaVaBoom!!! knowing I was going to see him had me over the edge, pacing back and forth, the butterflies in my tummy going wild, my knees giving up on me, once he was there by my side...what can I say? I am in love!! I get all giggly, I don't know how to act, react, my speech becomes all weird, I can't shut up, I keep talking and talking, sweaty palms...oh and I can't stop fidgeting and all of this by just seen him, can you imagine what happens to me when he touches me? I don't think so, but you can at least get an idea.

How much do I love him...Let me count the ways :)

A New Week

Everyday is a new beginning, a chance to get it right; nevermind what happened yesterday for it is already in the past...easier said than done, don't you think?

Been feeling completely out of my element and the only wish I have is to be my happy self...I need to organize myself and I know I am going to need the help of my Master...I am afraid to ask wondering what his answer will be :/ but I have to start somewhere.

I don't like to depend on others, the only person I can truly say I depended on and I can always go crawling back to without any shame in my game is my mom, but having to ask a man for help, damn, it is the hardest thing I will ever have to do.

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