Just a day old

I have no work today, but I am at work...LOL

to kill time I logged in Zroos, my black rose :) and she is such a great hit

She is different from all the AV's so far I have created.

and she is beautiful!!

lounging



what else but thinking about him...*sighs*



at home, about to try on some new/free clothes :)

I created Asvid but I have not logged her in much, I just wanted to claim the name and make sure I do a copyright on that name, still kicking my ass for not doing the same with Atiya.

SL feels empty although I am surrounded by people...

I can't commit to RP, I dislike that type of commitment, specially if I have to be on a schedule.  But thinking about it.
I am still with UT minor, is more like a family SIM :) and we are all regulars there...

Taking Zroos a different way though...but while i figure that out, I will keep moving on, around and see what develops.

Also in RL i am dedicating an hour a day, so far, to playing Assassins Creed 3, it just keeps getting better and better!!! mmmmmmmmmmmm not to brag but i am so good at it!!! hehehee

Back to SL!!

Empty...so Empty...

Out Dancing

I can say there are still some nice gentleman out there, respectful, smart and full of wonderful conversations!!

I built up enough courage and just went for it!!

I went to Sweethearts - they took out the boat, looks different.  Was not there for 5 minutes when a gentleman says hi and asks me to dance, reluctant at first I accepted and very glad I did!

Tre
Thank you for the evening of fun and laughs!

I like the way you view things and life, my dancing partner!!
We agreed if we bump heads in SL we are going out dancing!!

Because of time zone issues he had to go to bed...so I went SIM hopping!! looking for Jazz music of course!

I hopped to another SIM and there I met Hans, but after dancing for a while and talking it was only obvious he was there for one reason only....
yes, get laid

Still, had a great time, they had great music at that place!!

Great night in SL after all

Zroos

A bit more daring, getting out of the shell!

Trapped, no where out, no where to go...alone, afraid to go out into the world

caged in my emotions, unsure, which way to go, where to start, where to begin

In a box, wanting to get out, wanting to escape, to be more daring, to be more bold

and while I played around, pondering on what to do...



I sat, and still couldn't figure it out, I knew I looked fabulous, that is for sure

Moving from one place to another, nothing was coming to mind...scared to interact with others

Why if I am such a social butterfly in RL it is hard for me to actually just come out and be social in SL, i have my few friends, that no matter what life I take on, they will always be there.

Finally, after having my eyes closed for a while I decided to open them!



Everything was clear all around, even my mind!! I just went with my gut and oh what a wonderful night full of dance and conversations!!!



So I went out on the town......

Meet Asvid

MissE says "when I am feeling bleh, I want to get creative" so she creates different characters...

Some people to start out new, like the saying "get out with the old, get into the new" and since our old lives brings memories, we move on by creating different characters..

on 11/9/2012
Asvid Resident was born.

Why Asvid?  it is written in this blog already, it is the roleplay character name for Punky, I really wanted Atiya because it is a name I use often, even my RL blog, but someone had already claimed it "darn it"
Since I have been sporting the name Asvid for quite some time in SL I decided to give it a try, and it was available, lucky me!! i can get to claim a name I have used for like...I don't know 2 years by far :)

I know I can't erase the memories by creating a new av, but all the rest is a reminder of him, so I am going to start a bit fresh for now.
Of course my fave AV's will be logged in from time to time, like Kryystall, Cielo, Punky, Mayia, Aliexx, no doubt about that...i know is going to take time to adjust.

I know it is selfish of me to say, but I do hope we don't bump heads for now...I hope we are not logged in at the same time because I know exactly how I am going to feel...and honestly, I am weak when it comes to this man, although we are not together, I still wear his brand, and in some sorta way, i still feel his, I haven't even had the heart to remove my collars, and they will stay on, and they will remain under his name...that I don't want to change.

Back to creating, back to seen what mess I can get myself into, this time around in SL, I am going to be daring!!

from SL to RL
Asvid

Not the same

Is hard login in, a huge lump in my throat and a void in my tummy...the bad kind of butterflies...

Missing my Master very much...

SL is just a reminder of him, of us, and each AV reminds me of him...a history with him.

I am trying, I will try, and I will make it, is going to be alright although at this moment it doesn't feel like that.

My little heart aches

From RL
Punky

Sent from my Windows Phone

it is going to be hard...

Tonight, before I go to bed, when I am used to write him an email wishing him a great morning...

is going to be even harder, waking up to an empty email, full of spam, and junk mail...but there will not be a letter from him.

It is going to be hard login in to SL and seen my little screen where my partner used to be, empty, like my heart...empty, like my soul.

It is hard already when people are wondering and asking...

What happened?

You guys were perfect for each other!! *smiles softly* yes, we were :)

I was asked by several friends if I was going to give up SL, although I spent most of my SL life with him, and I know it is going to be hard every single day I log in, every place I go, even if we didn't visited together, just SL itself is a reminder of him, but, I also have wonderful friends, including him, although I may never see him again there.

Just one day at a time...

One log in at a time..........


From SL to RL
Punky

 

Divorced in SL

Hardest thing to do today...

But it had to happen.

heart broken, and feeling a bit lost but I will make it.

Fox gave me some wonderful moments in our SL life, the best ones if any...

We say never say never, but I will never get partnered in SL again. 

It was beautiful while it lasted, but sometimes, all great things must come to an end!

From RL
with a broken heart
Punky

a night at Thule

Harald has returned and he brought himself a little friend called Dal, but don't let the little fool you, he is older than wind!!

Piggy back ride...or should I say dwarf back ride!

Dal and Punky

MissE

It is always nice sharing time with friends in SL!


From SL to RL with love
Punky