Consequences of breaking up

Today I am taking the day to go through all my accts and emails and change all the passwords.

I didn't keep secrets from "him", needless to say, he had all the passwords to my accounts.
Is not like he is going to go through my stuff, but still, is something I need to do, must do.

Since we spent so long in Second Life, it is full of memories, those I am just putting in a folder, but having to go through each AV and each inventory, pffft that's a lot of work...i am sure it will take me a few days (2 if I rush it).

My emails are all set :) everything on folders; no, I dont get rid off anything, lol, I am hoarder of memories..to say the least , I still have the first letter my X•husband wrote to me in 1993, talk about saving things...

I really want to thank the people who are there for me, helping me get through.
Time heal all wounds, and I was wounded very deeply, but like my friends say "baby girl, is his loss, when he realizes what he lost, he will regret it"
I dont want him to regret a thing, and I am sure he is not regretting it or will regret it, my only concern is me, moving on, and healing.

To help in the process of healing I was told, never to leave things unsaid, to tell that person exactly how I am feeling, not to leave anything lingering, etc., and I did just that, I said what I had to say...and I am feeling so damn good about it, and myself :)

It is harder when one has been hurt, I can't recall the last time i felt so hurt, I think is the fact that I didn't expect certain things from such person, and thought he was different, in the end he was just like the rest...
This experience will make me stronger and a better person, but is gonna take time for me to ever trust again.

Sincerely Yours
Aluv


Sent from my Windows Phone

To a wonderful Follower

To Uma

Thank you for following me from my RL to my SL

next thing you know I probably see you trying out Second Life..haha!!

Thank you Uma!!
You are most awesome!

Hope you are enjoying...the adventures I've had, the good and the bad ones and the ones that are to come!

Hugs!!

Asvid

School Girl

Ready to go out!!

My girly girl was already waiting for me to teach me some hoe manners! she says I need to learn to let go and have fun and not be so prude...lol

"is a second life pussy" she says!

so I crossed my fingers and to have fun I went!

 



Looking fab in my uniform!

I made sure I packed all I needed
Books
Pen
Pencils
Candy
Lube...

The ass looks magnificient!!

excuse the baby...she was having a moment!

*giggles*
that's what happens when school girls get spanked!!
What an awesome night!
thank you all who made it possible...
Lucky girl for having such great friends!

Had a great time, learned new things!
Met new people, new places, AMAZING!!
haha
What an experience!!

**i had a busted day in RL but my SL made up for it!

Asvid

Lotus Privates

I went with a friend to get a cock...his old one was a lotus so to Lotus we went!

needless to say, it is shopping!!

so I bought me a new accessory

I think I have the Xcite...
trying something new, let us see how it works, HUD is easy enough to use.
you can pee, cum, change the color
oh!
and you have an butthole too!!
hehe, that is new to me.

Now, I am going out with a friend to venture!
she is taking me to a private school
*grins*

lets have some fun!

 

Moments, Conversations with Friends & 1 More thing!

I was spending some quality time with an old friend yesterday :) I do have to say he is one of my Best Friends, SL & RL!!

It is always nice seen him, and talking to him, aside from Dito of course, hehe...

In all the talking and conversations we had and everything we have shared in almost 4 years...wow, I can't believe is been 4 years!  Time just flies!

anyways

in our conversation we discussed how people can be in SL, while it is hard to think that "he" is like that, I know most of the things my friend was saying are true...aside from been a man, he is older, he has been in SL since the darn thing was created just about!  I don't know, he probably was there for the inauguration! LMAO (i am so gonna get a spanking for saying that!)

Lets be real, NOBODY just gets up and gives up SL! and when they have they always come back, maybe not with the same avatar, but the fact is they come back!

So, with that said...1 more thing

To YOU!!

Mr. Privateer...

Sad how you could not be around for me in SL, 

how it was going to be a long time since you would return.  

How sad you have to lie, or even have to hide,

All you had to do was to be honest and say the truth!

Can't you see, when you lie to me the only one you fool is yourself!

I really wanted to believe there was a difference between you and the rest, sad, I was just fooling myself!

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For all the people in SL that go around hiding alts,

I feel sorry for all of you that you feel you must hide,

you must have been very bad with your old avatar

if you think with a new one things will be different,

think again...the things that you must change.

Is not the old life, or your old avatar,

is the conflicts you create with all of your lies!

the problem is not second life but your real life,

our avatars are only expressions of who we really are,

We all go there to create and live the life we don't have and lack...

So when you create, or bring an old AV from the hiding

Check yourself first, because you will be going back to your old habits!

From SL to RL with Love

Punky

P.S.

you are sad...

I'm a good girl ;)

I am and always have been...
and always will be :)
what?
I am a good girl *giggles and laughs*

The dress is Chanel, the shoes YSL

The bag is Dior, Agent Provocateur

My address today, LA by the way

Above Sunset Strip, the hills all the way

My rings are by Webster, it makes their heads twirl

They all say, "Darling, what did you do for those pearls?"

What?

I am a good girl

The age I adore, the day, oh, no more

Breakfast Polo Launch and pools at the shore

The Chateau for cocktails, The Courtyard at night

Downtown is for dinner, the hell is divine

You know I have found the words going round

they all say my feet never do touch the ground

What?

I am a good girl!

I aaaam a goooooood giiiirl!!!!!

Great Feeling

Sometimes when in love we give the person attention, we nurture them, we find every given possible way to make them feel loved, cared for, and of course constantly work with them to improve the relationship.

Since it is great to feel loved, respected, appreciated, and to know we have our better half backing us up 100% in everything we set out to do, and decisions we make, good or bad, knowing that someone will always be there to support us through thick and thin, not judge us for who we really are, accept and love our faults/imperfections as much as they appreciate our perfections and success...
It is what I wanted to give and gave in my last "relationship" affair.

Unfortunately there are people who believe because a person gives 100% of themselves to another and the relationship that they have become the center of their universe and probably do not have a life aside from them.

People are only as important in our lives as we make them out to be, the importance that we give that individual.  A person only matters if you make them matter...A person only have power over you if you allow them to.

Of course it is painful when any relationship ends, specially when there are feelings involved, but one thing probably this person forgot about me is the strength I have, the self love!
I love myself!
I respect myself!
and I appreciate the woman that I am!
It is the reason why I am able to love so deeply, because love is in me!

in the famous words of Frank Crane
"You will be deceived if you trust too much, but you will live in torment if you don't trust enough"
needless to say, I trusted too much.
but i also believe
"is better to have loved and lost than not to have loved at all"

I was hurting...
But for two days now a light went on!

The aches, the pain, the empty feeling have been replaced and almost non-existent.

What a great feeling!

mmmmm the things that are to come :)

...so sweet,

Thinking of the future,

Of amazing things to come,

I just want to thank Karma, and all the sweet delights that surrounds her!

Amazing, isn't it?

From SL to RL with much, much love
Punky and all the rest(s) of me!