Happy New Year :)

A new year coming

Positive mind

Learned to let go

Forgave

Moving on

Happy

At peace

Is a working progress :)

Year of the dragon will end in February 2013, and the year of the snake will begin, those born in 1974 (tigers)...including me, we are going to have a bad year according to the Chinese calendar...in business, in health, in love.
Taking precautions...my goals for the New Year are ready, meditation is my first on the list!

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I will be spending time in SL, go out, have fun, go a bit crazy, friends are right, I need to let go of all my inhibitions, and do things!! LOL, i have a shit load of beautiful AV's, most popular right now is Asvid *grins* I think is her young, innocent look..

She is the skinniest AV I've ever had!
all of them have this amazing body, nice thick and broad hips, legs that look like weapons, thick girls, but Asvid is nothing like them.

I still wear my collar, with the new upgrade now I can hide it.  Before I couldn't.

Hot Bitch!

Not going out in RL for new years, we had a snow storm last night and the streets are yucky for the moment and cold like a mother...

I am going to party like is 1999 in SL...

Trying dresses on to see which one will be the one...
I am going with red, no matter what, you see, red is my color ;-p

Jazz club to begin with
Then get some real punk/Mistress outfit on and to a head banging club it is!

I have my New Years Day all planned out!


From SL to RL
Happy Punky

RL Rez Day

And today is my rez day :)

Looking and feeling great for a woman my age.

38

Today was an adventure.

*stretching my arms above my head, a huge smile upon my still pink lips, the left over of the lipstick that's been adorning them through the day, i stretch my legs, curling my toes, twisting my body to the side as my arms stretched out above my head twisting in the opposite direction, mmmmm feels good.... my hair spread out like the petals of a flower around my head, against the sheets, silky, soft, shiny, freshly colored...wiggling my body in the middle of the bed, sighs*

Today was a good day.

From RL
The Punk Girl ;•)



Sent from my Windows Phone

...Things that are going on...

I took a bunch of picture of UT minor for the photo competition...I forgot to send them in :(

UT looks awesome in the summer and even more magnificent during the winter...it is unreal how Misse be doing that place up!! lol

I am not feeling well, SL or RL
It will take time to adjust, to be myself again, I just can't wait for it to happen, I want this bitter/sour taste in my mouth to go away once and for all.

it is hard been this down and trying to fake it around everyone.

Do you know what it is to break down in front of a group?
I try to hold back my tears, hide my emotions, but it comes a moment that the pain, the ache, the hurt just takes over and there is no where to hide it...and the only option is to excuse myself, and make something up quickly to leave...but some times I have no time to get away, I choke...
I make up a headache, or a stomach ache too painful for me to take or handle at the moment, it works around family, but the people who see me on a regular basis, hard to hide it from them, or even more so having to lie.

I barely leave my room, hey, I barely leave my house, I can't stand to go out there feeling like this...
Nothing has meaning at this point...

Will I ever trust again?
that is my biggest fear.  Took me so long to build that, for someone just to take it and crush it, toy with it, stomp on it...because it didn't mean anything to him.
it was easier and more convenient to kill my trust, my feelings, my love, than to be honest...wow, just wow!!! 

Since I am a believer that what goes around comes around, and I really don't wish anyone any harm or pain, I swear, my pain is nothing compare to what this person will have to endure one day.

Aint that some shit!!

Broken from SL to RL

today...i am angry

going quiet for a while...not that i am saying i am leaving SL, but blogger wise.

I will be posting pics, and include a blurb on the pics, but i have decided to go under the radar for a while.

I need time.

I will be login in, that is for sure, that is not changing, I have friends, and that I am not ready to give up.

But it is better to go private, quiet.

Today I realized how angry I am feeling.

Today I said some things I probably should not have in an email, do i regret it? no, because it is how I feel.  so i am ready to back up my words.  no going back :) what kind of person would that make me? hehe

*sighs*

wow, i am just wowed!!!

anyways!!

to up the mood, dress up nice in RL, go out and mingle, in SL, leave groups, take off collars and look fabulous wearing my kiki boots :)

One thing I must say, man had awesome taste!

Will see you around...

from SL to RL
Punky

 

so long as you are true to the best that is in you...

 

To be so strong that nothing
can disturb your peace of mind.
To talk health, happiness, and prosperity
to every person you meet.

To make all your friends feel
that there is something in them
To look at the sunny side of everything
and make your optimism come true.

... To think only the best, to work only for the best,
and to expect only the best.
To be just as enthusiastic about the success of others
as you are about your own.

To forget the mistakes of the past
and press on to the greater achievements of the future.
To wear a cheerful countenance at all times
and give every living creature you meet a smile.

To give so much time to the improvement of yourself
that you have no time to criticize others.
To be too large for worry, too noble for anger, too strong for fear,
and too happy to permit the presence of trouble.

To think well of yourself and to proclaim this fact to the world,
not in loud words but great deeds.
To live in faith that the whole world is on your side
so long as you are true to the best that is in you.

― Christian D. Larson,

Consequences of breaking up

Today I am taking the day to go through all my accts and emails and change all the passwords.

I didn't keep secrets from "him", needless to say, he had all the passwords to my accounts.
Is not like he is going to go through my stuff, but still, is something I need to do, must do.

Since we spent so long in Second Life, it is full of memories, those I am just putting in a folder, but having to go through each AV and each inventory, pffft that's a lot of work...i am sure it will take me a few days (2 if I rush it).

My emails are all set :) everything on folders; no, I dont get rid off anything, lol, I am hoarder of memories..to say the least , I still have the first letter my X•husband wrote to me in 1993, talk about saving things...

I really want to thank the people who are there for me, helping me get through.
Time heal all wounds, and I was wounded very deeply, but like my friends say "baby girl, is his loss, when he realizes what he lost, he will regret it"
I dont want him to regret a thing, and I am sure he is not regretting it or will regret it, my only concern is me, moving on, and healing.

To help in the process of healing I was told, never to leave things unsaid, to tell that person exactly how I am feeling, not to leave anything lingering, etc., and I did just that, I said what I had to say...and I am feeling so damn good about it, and myself :)

It is harder when one has been hurt, I can't recall the last time i felt so hurt, I think is the fact that I didn't expect certain things from such person, and thought he was different, in the end he was just like the rest...
This experience will make me stronger and a better person, but is gonna take time for me to ever trust again.

Sincerely Yours
Aluv


Sent from my Windows Phone

To a wonderful Follower

To Uma

Thank you for following me from my RL to my SL

next thing you know I probably see you trying out Second Life..haha!!

Thank you Uma!!
You are most awesome!

Hope you are enjoying...the adventures I've had, the good and the bad ones and the ones that are to come!

Hugs!!

Asvid

School Girl

Ready to go out!!

My girly girl was already waiting for me to teach me some hoe manners! she says I need to learn to let go and have fun and not be so prude...lol

"is a second life pussy" she says!

so I crossed my fingers and to have fun I went!

 



Looking fab in my uniform!

I made sure I packed all I needed
Books
Pen
Pencils
Candy
Lube...

The ass looks magnificient!!

excuse the baby...she was having a moment!

*giggles*
that's what happens when school girls get spanked!!
What an awesome night!
thank you all who made it possible...
Lucky girl for having such great friends!

Had a great time, learned new things!
Met new people, new places, AMAZING!!
haha
What an experience!!

**i had a busted day in RL but my SL made up for it!

Asvid