My view on Gorean Roleplay & Masters in SL

I did some role playing as a Gorean slave for a bit but in all honesty it was too hard!  I didn't mind learning certain things but it seemed that everyone in Second Life make their own rules as they go along and at times I didn't know which way to go.

Learning to serve was the most hideous part, writing all those emotes killed me and when you meet some of the slaves that are really into what they do it can make anyone look like you need some serious training.  I write the way I would do things in RL, I am not so great with the emotes and really had to put an extra effort specially when there were people around I would turn into pure shit.  I am not shy yet in SL depending where I am at and who I am with I get quiet and nervous, why? beats the hell out of me! I do feel comfortable when Master is around, able to express myself and  don't mess up as much.

In Second Life Gor and BDSM rule but you have to be really careful with some of the people you meet.  At the Gor HUB you meet tons of Masters looking for slaves to collar and slaves looking to be collared which is something I still can't quite grasp.  A relationship between an Owner and his slave should be special, unique, a bond like no other.  I have met some Masters who have a shit load of slaves and they are extremely unhappy, tons of drama, they are slave collectors, they thrive in saying that they have all this girls at their feet and get a kick out of mistreating them not doing what they are suppose to do...

"It is one thing to own a woman, and it is another to have her within the bonds of an excellent mastery."
Page 465 - Magicians of Gor

Some should read the books and get a bit educated if this is the road they really want to take, just because they call themselves Master does not mean that they really are.

Other things that really was a downer is the name calling...eeeek, didn't enjoy it at all, but I guess is the Gorean way...

"in the eyes of the Gorean you are an animal.  You have no name in your own right.  You may be collared and leashed.  You may be bought and sold, whipped, treated as the Master pleases, disposed off as he sees fit.  You have no right whatsoever.  Legally you have no more status than a Tarsk or a Vulo.  Legally, Literally, you are an animal"  Page 316 Explorers of Gor

I like the concept of the Gorean lifestyle but there are things that I just can't stand, to all you wanna be Masters get your act straight, don't try to play Master, be one!

"Yes, slaves are property, to be treated as a mere animal, but, how many truly are?  Those slaves who are well trained, are greatly desired, fiercely protected, treasured and even loved.  Many a war has been fought over the recovery of ones slave"


"Swords are often drawn on Gor over women, and particularly over lovely slaves.  Women are prizes, perfections and treasures.  It is not wonder that men fight over them with ferocity.  Wars have been fought to recover a stolen slave"
Page 397, Renegades of Gor

"...the slave girl is not simply someone with whom the man lives; she is very special to him; she is a treasured possession; he owns her; he wants to know her; profoundly and deeply; the background, history, the mind, the intelligence, the appetites, the nature and disposition of his lovely article of property; this knowledge, of course, puts her more at his mercy; by making it possible to manipulate her feelings, exploit weakness, drop asides...she is in the helpless condition of slavery, it give him more power over her"
Page 42, Tribesmen of Gor

I love that last quote, makes me understand my Master so much, his curiosity in knowing every single detail about me is awesome!! I am open with him in every possible way you can think of...he owns me, I submitted, he accepted, which was such an honor for me, I do not wear a collar, but I am branded *grins wide* (in Real Life)

I love him *smiles*

Getting Nursery Ready

enjoying the end results

Already at week 16 and 24 more to go (in SL time), time is just going by so fast before I know it the baby will be here, my due date is three weeks from tomorrow.  I have been feeling the baby came at the wrong time, he does not have time to be online and I think he will miss the birth and many more things to come...Anyways...

 Already have the crib, changing table and little things that I will be needing, now all I have to do is just wait for the big day.

I placed a house up in the sky a few weeks ago, cute little cabin place which I use to relax and clean up my inventories.  I own a ton of houses, is one my hobbies.  I thought it would be cozy to bring the girly home to this place, our other home is a bit Vikinish and the Zooby crib might look out of place there.

Very satisfied with the end results! yeaee, I feel weird because I am actually excited about having this baby, helluuurrr, something wrong with me?  It makes me sad in a way...brings certain memories that I am still trying to overcome and there are days that I feel so lost, blame myself and wonder, why?

Multi-Tasking & Priorities

I often get asked by friends how I manage to be in SL while doing chores, cooking, laundry, work 40 hrs a week, pick up my kids from work, meditate, get enough sleep at night and squeeze in extra curriculum activities that comes in between.

All I can say is that I manage well and able to accomplish every single task I set out to do.  I do have to write things down, certain things of course.  I am sorta of a perfectionist, when I do something I have to make sure is done properly and I aim to get it done the first time, I follow Stephen Kings' motto "if you don't have time to do something right the first time, where are you going to find the time to fix it".

I don't have much to fix around the house since I am up at 5:30 everyday and make sure the house is up to standards before I leave, my bed is made and the mess I make each morning looking for clothes is placed back where it belongs.  When I get home after working my 8 hours I log into SL while I am cooking, dusting, probably watching T.V at the same time *grins wide* and after all is said and done...I make sure the kitchen is mopped each night before I go to bed...Hey, I was raised in the Dominican Republic we mop twice a day over there and dust everyday, some habits just stayed with me...that's not all, hehe, I love the smell of clean fresh sheets and pillow case so I like to change them before I go to bed, I sleep naked and the feel of the softness all over my body ummmm priceless!

My time is pretty much all distributed through an entire day of running around but I drop everything in a microsecond when I hear that special ring tone from him, whether it is a text or an email...doesn't matter what it is.  I have canceled appointments, arrived late to work, left work late, rearranged meetings at work and even had them postponed them because my Master is logged in.  He is most important, the priceless feeling my sheets give me at night can't compare to the feeling he gives me (wow, I am comparing him to sheets).
Any time and chance I get to be with him I make sure my schedule is completely clear, while in SL he gets distracted probably chatting or in RL with other programs, watch a movie or a show, little does he know (he will find out now) is that I am running around doing the same things at home..haha.  All that counts is that I am with him, spending time with him...He is my priority.

Bad Connection

My internet was acting up today and all the joy I had coming home to log into my SL just got squashed down.  Once I was able to log in I couldn't TP (teleport) to other SIM's and when I tried it was a sure crash :(

After so many crashes I noticed that Cielo's birth control pills were gone, my HUD was not working properly and it went from day 27 to day 1 so I rushed to Mama Allpa to get her started on the pills again...already have Punky pregnant, I will go nuts if Kryystall, Aliexx, or Cielo get pregnant at this point.

It has been a while since I logged in Aliexx (Dash's Jewel) and all I can say is WoW! how could I forget about such a beauty?  No more, she is out of the box and dusted real well and ready for her Master when she is needed.  Her Inventory is a bit lame seems she only have slave wear in there *hehe*

I need to bring some of my AV's out of hiding and get into other things, I like variety, I can't do just one thing, I have to be up and at it, busy, having something to do or I will go in a thinking rampage and I don't like that at all!

Took some pics in between crashes *grins* hope you all enjoy!

CIELO

ALIEXX

Good Monday

I am logged in in SLiteChat, is like an IM for SecondLife *grins* yeah...I am that hooked!! It looks like I am logged in, I really wonder if my av is actually in-world; people are seen me logged in and I am having to explain over and over again that I am not actually there that is just like a chat thingy wingy.

Looking forward to getting home, I have so much to do between this week and next week is not even funny...getting a nursery ready, keeping up with La Dominique since it feels I have been away for a while, getting other things done here and there for I really want to go into my SL full force.
I was asked to play daughter to my friends Kaede and Walker from Terabithia, hellz yeah, so down with that! hehe, getting an av ready to play their kid, I just hope I can do it.  I told them to do a schedule for me, I work better with schedules, knowing days and time I need to be there makes it easier for me :)

RL is going great, feeling at ease and not letting petty stuff get to me...it is amazing how the negativity of others can affect you in so many ways, the way you think, act, and feel.  I was completely out of my character for a while, doubts flying around left and right...sad thing is that certain events that took place just reinforced my doubts about many things :(
Yet here I am against all odds, proud to say that our love is worth every sacrifice I have made and all the changes that has taken place.

Loving you Loving me

**Can't wait to get home**

From SL to RL with love

I understand is hard to make the transition from Second Life to Real Life specially for some of us.  I have a few friends that say that my relationship with Him is not going to go beyond computer walls and I understand where they gather their conclusions - they have gone through heart aches and deceptions and they probably don't want to see me going through the same.

They say things such as: I am too good for him *eeeek*, that I have so much love to give, and how he does not give me the attention I so much deserve.
I don't think I am better than Him (or anyone else for that matter) nor that I am too good for Him, I do have so much love to give and that is exactly what I am doing - loving Him, as far as the attention is concerned he does have a job and responsibilities he needs to tend to and I understand and for that I am called blind.

I really don't give much explanations for I feel the only one I need to explain things to is Him.  I love the fact they care enough to tell me how they feel, how honest they are when they express their feeling, and I also understand that someone outside the circle has a better view than the ones in it, they probably see something I don't, but hey...love is blind, it has no reason, it can't tell time, and what they don't understand is the dynamic of our relationship.

You see...I am owned, submitted not only in Second Life but also in Real Life, I knelt before him and surrendered everything I am to him.  I have taken my submission very serious, I am deaf to everything negative everyone has to say, the only one that matters is Him, what he has to say, his feelings and my feelings.  His words are first and last in my book and in my life whether it is my SL or my RL because both of them belong to him.

Not many can understand what submission is, belonging to someone freely in heart, mind, and soul, to love someone above and beyond all reasons, trust that someone with your life, with everything you are and you aspire to be.

He is my Owner, my Master; I am His slave, his property, his girl...and when I tell you I am owned and his property, oooh I mean that from the bottom of my heart, I am branded with his initials and my slave numbers so there you go...any questions?

***UPDATE
Nov, 2012 all ended
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after 8 agonizing months...we found our way to each other again.

I love my Master and Owner

My SL Date

My friend Flower from Dominique is as sweet as she can be, she was having a hard time the other day and has not been around much and finally today she shows up...guess what?  I took her out on a date!We got all dolled up and hit the town!

Had an awesome time!  now is time to go to bed, want to get up in the middle of the night and enjoy some more SL time!  I am so hooked! hehe
I am going to decorate our house today and make it awesome!! and thinking of changing our home once again...hehe, to make it more comfy for us ya know *grins*
and as Dotties' would say....TOODLES!!!!!

A Day in La Dominique

Rae was teaching me to sail again, it was shameful to see me even try, so bad!!

First and foremost I am meeting wonderful people, Sir has been wonderful and very understanding...when we first met he had the hots for me but when I explained to him I belonged to someone in every meaning of the word, he still comes to the island and watch me dance :)

he tells everyone that sees him there (cause he suppose to be an enemy) that he goes to there to think and get inspired *grins wide*

Of course this cute "muse" can inspire a rock!! duh, you blame him for drooling !?

Rae is the one who was teaching me to sail...that was a project on its on!

of course we were more stuck than sailing but he was very calm and took it easy with me *shakes her head* but I was able to get the hang of it

After we were done *more like crashed* he gave me a big hug!! I think he was just happy because I didn't get him killed...*giggles*

and then he scared the shizzles out of me when he went into the water and became a big monster...his other char where he RP's at

It was a great day!!