I still don't give up my SL

I logged in today and paid the rent, checked on Bubba - the family dog, and unfortunately didn't bother saying hello to a few of my friends...I am keeping a low profile for now, questions begin to flutter and in all honesty there are some negative people out there.

My friend MissE didn't go on with the plans of opening the SIM, RL comes first at all times, I just hope things get better for her, praying for your GuRl

I am not a constant user, my addiction died out through the years, even though I love SL I also enjoy doing other things, and like every good thing - it gets old after a while; the same story lines in almost all the places, there is so much roleplay you can do, shopping, exploration...as far as the shopping goes it only applies in SL and not in RL, just want to make that clear :)
Anyways...I hang on to my SL with the hope that I will get to spend time with my papi, but like me I think he is feeling the same way, there is so much we can do and with the limited amount of time he was coming in, well...you get my drift.

We all go through our phases when we can't get enough of a certain thing and after a while it just gets played out, we set it aside until we get on that mood again, when we go through that phase.

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Positive

Feeling extremely positive, the situation still the same but it is very different when you pay mind to something and when you dismiss it and just say "fuck it"

There is much I still don't get and trying to figure out on my own...did lots of thinking yesterday sorting out my ideas and future plans; I am not going too far into the future because things do change rather quickly around here so it is better I take it a month at a time instead of thinking two or three months ahead.

A new week has began and with it a new way of thinking and doing things.  I am glad meditation can help me in more ways than one to relax and view situations in a different way, I am reaching a new level and I am enjoying it.  I never thought it could possible to feel the way I have been feeling when I am done a session of meditation, the tranquility and the peace is exhilarating.

Irene making her appearance

Irene has been making her way through the east coast since last night yet I hardly felt a thing, I slept like a rock! I woke up to the sound of the rain smacking hard against the window, I rushed over to check it out and to my amazement the trees where rocking back and forth with fury! I live on a third floor so it was a bit scary to see this.

I made a few phone calls to people I know wake up before the sun shines and they tell me this has been going on since before 6 am, I look at my clock and is close to 10:30 am...Did I sleep through all that? My friend tells me that some streets were close because of trees falling and some towns without electricity; glad we are not one of them...then the lights started flickering, minutes later the entire house went dark but it came back on after a few minutes :) happy moment.

Everyone made a huge fuzz about Irene and like every other hurricane we wait for it was just a little bust at least in our area which I am extremely grateful for and very lucky as well.  Last year Earl was suppose to hit use hard, supermarkets full, the lines going out the door, same as this year, and Earl went by just waving at us :-/ just saying...In the east coast we make huge deals about storms that by now I have learned to believe it until I see it, I still have candles left from 1999 when they said the lights were going to go off at midnight, to be prepare for 2000 that it was going to be chaos...I am sure there are many people still consuming their can food from that year as well.  It is scary to thing something like that is coming our way and we are not prepared for it...makes me wonder

I have some essentials in case of emergency, I am not only prepared for a catastrophe, I am prepared just in case at any given moment something happens.  I don't think we will know when something big is going to hit us, just like that tornado that hit Springfield MA, nobody was expecting that! here! in the east coast, a tornado?
MSNBC post on Springfield Tornado. 

We are just waiting now for the storm to pass, the wind is dieing out, the rain recently stopped, I think we are going to be alright :)

Who Should Give Us Advice?

Most often times we seek advice from the people we know and care about but you have to take in consideration their advice is impacted by the way they feel about you, how much they care about you, they simply don't really give you advice but tell you what to do just because they don't want you to hurt or be caught in a bad spot...

I am going through a very rough time in all the emotional aspects of my life but I keep them to myself, I know exactly what everyone around me will say so why even bother sharing, specially when I am going through a moment of insecurities and it will just pass eventually so why even bother alarming anyone else or give them something to talk about or judge...

Making decisions is hard enough and having different ideas, opinion from different people , their views can be sometimes helpful or confuse you even more, I am glad I found someone who somehow is more or less in the same position that I am and talking to her opened up a new level! My mind is open to even more ideas and possibilities, questions I have to answer for myself, search deep within my soul and my heart...I have a better idea on how I want to approach things :)

thank you Mindset

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Back on the Horse

Feeling like myself this days, pregnancy among other stressful situations can really affect a persons attitude and self-esteem...finally getting back on track on most things.

I want to thank those who are there for me to help me once again rise to the top, with their love, affection, and understanding.  Things are looking pretty good from where I am standing or sitting in this case, I sometimes let things get to me just a bit too much but once I get the hang of it everything just falls into place.

Sorting out my ideas and feelings to figure out where I am standing and where I'm going from here...Reality may suck at times and will smack you on the face with all her strength, but there is a reason for everything, at least that is my believe.  I don't give up easily, never have and never will.

The only thing I am afraid of is that I stop believing in love, in fate, and in destiny...

The Shoulder

Slide

The essence of your love takes over me, 

in the night,

in the dark,

my fingers slide,

sleek and smooth,

between the silky path

my fingers slide....

Manic Monday

on my way to work this morning

Only the Bangles can explain it better than I can!!

Is just another manic Monday

I wish it was Sunday 

'cause that's my fun day

my I don't have to run day 

is just another manic Monday!!

Without Him There Is No SL

I go days that I don't log into SL and is not that I don't like it but everything reminds me of HIM, everywhere I go is a reminder of the days spent with my Master - more like years actually...wow, that sounds like a long time!

2009 and 2010 we spent time together, tons of time, whenever He could log in to see me He was there, but 2011 came around and RL became really hectic and priorities were set (call it instinct but I think there is more to it than meets the eye)...I sometimes wish I could spend at least one day a week with him, interacting, talking, just having a moment with Him.  I don't want much, I don't need much...I just have a need to spend some time with Him.  I miss Him so very much, I miss our SL time, I miss us...

With Bubba! love my doggie