Thursday, February 21, 2013

not much SL activities this days

I have not quit


Much going IRL

I need to get my RL going...as much as I want to spend time in SL I can't bring myself to it.

Still to this point all is a reminder of him, even when  I created two more AV's to start new, it doesn't help, it didn't help.

It was easy for him to move on, to go on.
I wish it was that easy for me, but my time will come, my day will come

I log in for very little time
enough time to pay tier and leave
I don't even check at this point to see who is on
I am not going to be there long enough to have a conversation
so I figure
why bother ever starting one.


Happy to say that my RL is wonderful, more active, doing more things, making more plans, it is something I am enjoying very much.

I need the distraction and at the moment SL is not one of my options.

Still
the wounds are deep
Still
it hurts


so yes,
a big part
a huge part
the only reason why I don't log in as much
is because I still carry that pain in me, that hurt, even worse, that love

Asvid