Change of plans

RL is busy

Was going to spend New Years  in SL but suddenly things came up.

A boost of energy

Positive things

Nice



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Happy New Year :)

A new year coming

Positive mind

Learned to let go

Forgave

Moving on

Happy

At peace

Is a working progress :)

Year of the dragon will end in February 2013, and the year of the snake will begin, those born in 1974 (tigers)...including me, we are going to have a bad year according to the Chinese calendar...in business, in health, in love.
Taking precautions...my goals for the New Year are ready, meditation is my first on the list!

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I will be spending time in SL, go out, have fun, go a bit crazy, friends are right, I need to let go of all my inhibitions, and do things!! LOL, i have a shit load of beautiful AV's, most popular right now is Asvid *grins* I think is her young, innocent look..

She is the skinniest AV I've ever had!
all of them have this amazing body, nice thick and broad hips, legs that look like weapons, thick girls, but Asvid is nothing like them.

I still wear my collar, with the new upgrade now I can hide it.  Before I couldn't.

Hot Bitch!

Not going out in RL for new years, we had a snow storm last night and the streets are yucky for the moment and cold like a mother...

I am going to party like is 1999 in SL...

Trying dresses on to see which one will be the one...
I am going with red, no matter what, you see, red is my color ;-p

Jazz club to begin with
Then get some real punk/Mistress outfit on and to a head banging club it is!

I have my New Years Day all planned out!


From SL to RL
Happy Punky

RL Rez Day

And today is my rez day :)

Looking and feeling great for a woman my age.

38

Today was an adventure.

*stretching my arms above my head, a huge smile upon my still pink lips, the left over of the lipstick that's been adorning them through the day, i stretch my legs, curling my toes, twisting my body to the side as my arms stretched out above my head twisting in the opposite direction, mmmmm feels good.... my hair spread out like the petals of a flower around my head, against the sheets, silky, soft, shiny, freshly colored...wiggling my body in the middle of the bed, sighs*

Today was a good day.

From RL
The Punk Girl ;•)



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...Things that are going on...

I took a bunch of picture of UT minor for the photo competition...I forgot to send them in :(

UT looks awesome in the summer and even more magnificent during the winter...it is unreal how Misse be doing that place up!! lol

I am not feeling well, SL or RL
It will take time to adjust, to be myself again, I just can't wait for it to happen, I want this bitter/sour taste in my mouth to go away once and for all.

it is hard been this down and trying to fake it around everyone.

Do you know what it is to break down in front of a group?
I try to hold back my tears, hide my emotions, but it comes a moment that the pain, the ache, the hurt just takes over and there is no where to hide it...and the only option is to excuse myself, and make something up quickly to leave...but some times I have no time to get away, I choke...
I make up a headache, or a stomach ache too painful for me to take or handle at the moment, it works around family, but the people who see me on a regular basis, hard to hide it from them, or even more so having to lie.

I barely leave my room, hey, I barely leave my house, I can't stand to go out there feeling like this...
Nothing has meaning at this point...

Will I ever trust again?
that is my biggest fear.  Took me so long to build that, for someone just to take it and crush it, toy with it, stomp on it...because it didn't mean anything to him.
it was easier and more convenient to kill my trust, my feelings, my love, than to be honest...wow, just wow!!! 

Since I am a believer that what goes around comes around, and I really don't wish anyone any harm or pain, I swear, my pain is nothing compare to what this person will have to endure one day.

Aint that some shit!!

Broken from SL to RL

today...i am angry

going quiet for a while...not that i am saying i am leaving SL, but blogger wise.

I will be posting pics, and include a blurb on the pics, but i have decided to go under the radar for a while.

I need time.

I will be login in, that is for sure, that is not changing, I have friends, and that I am not ready to give up.

But it is better to go private, quiet.

Today I realized how angry I am feeling.

Today I said some things I probably should not have in an email, do i regret it? no, because it is how I feel.  so i am ready to back up my words.  no going back :) what kind of person would that make me? hehe

*sighs*

wow, i am just wowed!!!

anyways!!

to up the mood, dress up nice in RL, go out and mingle, in SL, leave groups, take off collars and look fabulous wearing my kiki boots :)

One thing I must say, man had awesome taste!

Will see you around...

from SL to RL
Punky

 

so long as you are true to the best that is in you...

 

To be so strong that nothing
can disturb your peace of mind.
To talk health, happiness, and prosperity
to every person you meet.

To make all your friends feel
that there is something in them
To look at the sunny side of everything
and make your optimism come true.

... To think only the best, to work only for the best,
and to expect only the best.
To be just as enthusiastic about the success of others
as you are about your own.

To forget the mistakes of the past
and press on to the greater achievements of the future.
To wear a cheerful countenance at all times
and give every living creature you meet a smile.

To give so much time to the improvement of yourself
that you have no time to criticize others.
To be too large for worry, too noble for anger, too strong for fear,
and too happy to permit the presence of trouble.

To think well of yourself and to proclaim this fact to the world,
not in loud words but great deeds.
To live in faith that the whole world is on your side
so long as you are true to the best that is in you.

― Christian D. Larson,

Consequences of breaking up

Today I am taking the day to go through all my accts and emails and change all the passwords.

I didn't keep secrets from "him", needless to say, he had all the passwords to my accounts.
Is not like he is going to go through my stuff, but still, is something I need to do, must do.

Since we spent so long in Second Life, it is full of memories, those I am just putting in a folder, but having to go through each AV and each inventory, pffft that's a lot of work...i am sure it will take me a few days (2 if I rush it).

My emails are all set :) everything on folders; no, I dont get rid off anything, lol, I am hoarder of memories..to say the least , I still have the first letter my X•husband wrote to me in 1993, talk about saving things...

I really want to thank the people who are there for me, helping me get through.
Time heal all wounds, and I was wounded very deeply, but like my friends say "baby girl, is his loss, when he realizes what he lost, he will regret it"
I dont want him to regret a thing, and I am sure he is not regretting it or will regret it, my only concern is me, moving on, and healing.

To help in the process of healing I was told, never to leave things unsaid, to tell that person exactly how I am feeling, not to leave anything lingering, etc., and I did just that, I said what I had to say...and I am feeling so damn good about it, and myself :)

It is harder when one has been hurt, I can't recall the last time i felt so hurt, I think is the fact that I didn't expect certain things from such person, and thought he was different, in the end he was just like the rest...
This experience will make me stronger and a better person, but is gonna take time for me to ever trust again.

Sincerely Yours
Aluv


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To a wonderful Follower

To Uma

Thank you for following me from my RL to my SL

next thing you know I probably see you trying out Second Life..haha!!

Thank you Uma!!
You are most awesome!

Hope you are enjoying...the adventures I've had, the good and the bad ones and the ones that are to come!

Hugs!!

Asvid

School Girl

Ready to go out!!

My girly girl was already waiting for me to teach me some hoe manners! she says I need to learn to let go and have fun and not be so prude...lol

"is a second life pussy" she says!

so I crossed my fingers and to have fun I went!

 



Looking fab in my uniform!

I made sure I packed all I needed
Books
Pen
Pencils
Candy
Lube...

The ass looks magnificient!!

excuse the baby...she was having a moment!

*giggles*
that's what happens when school girls get spanked!!
What an awesome night!
thank you all who made it possible...
Lucky girl for having such great friends!

Had a great time, learned new things!
Met new people, new places, AMAZING!!
haha
What an experience!!

**i had a busted day in RL but my SL made up for it!

Asvid

Lotus Privates

I went with a friend to get a cock...his old one was a lotus so to Lotus we went!

needless to say, it is shopping!!

so I bought me a new accessory

I think I have the Xcite...
trying something new, let us see how it works, HUD is easy enough to use.
you can pee, cum, change the color
oh!
and you have an butthole too!!
hehe, that is new to me.

Now, I am going out with a friend to venture!
she is taking me to a private school
*grins*

lets have some fun!

 

Moments, Conversations with Friends & 1 More thing!

I was spending some quality time with an old friend yesterday :) I do have to say he is one of my Best Friends, SL & RL!!

It is always nice seen him, and talking to him, aside from Dito of course, hehe...

In all the talking and conversations we had and everything we have shared in almost 4 years...wow, I can't believe is been 4 years!  Time just flies!

anyways

in our conversation we discussed how people can be in SL, while it is hard to think that "he" is like that, I know most of the things my friend was saying are true...aside from been a man, he is older, he has been in SL since the darn thing was created just about!  I don't know, he probably was there for the inauguration! LMAO (i am so gonna get a spanking for saying that!)

Lets be real, NOBODY just gets up and gives up SL! and when they have they always come back, maybe not with the same avatar, but the fact is they come back!

So, with that said...1 more thing

To YOU!!

Mr. Privateer...

Sad how you could not be around for me in SL, 

how it was going to be a long time since you would return.  

How sad you have to lie, or even have to hide,

All you had to do was to be honest and say the truth!

Can't you see, when you lie to me the only one you fool is yourself!

I really wanted to believe there was a difference between you and the rest, sad, I was just fooling myself!

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For all the people in SL that go around hiding alts,

I feel sorry for all of you that you feel you must hide,

you must have been very bad with your old avatar

if you think with a new one things will be different,

think again...the things that you must change.

Is not the old life, or your old avatar,

is the conflicts you create with all of your lies!

the problem is not second life but your real life,

our avatars are only expressions of who we really are,

We all go there to create and live the life we don't have and lack...

So when you create, or bring an old AV from the hiding

Check yourself first, because you will be going back to your old habits!

From SL to RL with Love

Punky

P.S.

you are sad...

I'm a good girl ;)

I am and always have been...
and always will be :)
what?
I am a good girl *giggles and laughs*

The dress is Chanel, the shoes YSL

The bag is Dior, Agent Provocateur

My address today, LA by the way

Above Sunset Strip, the hills all the way

My rings are by Webster, it makes their heads twirl

They all say, "Darling, what did you do for those pearls?"

What?

I am a good girl

The age I adore, the day, oh, no more

Breakfast Polo Launch and pools at the shore

The Chateau for cocktails, The Courtyard at night

Downtown is for dinner, the hell is divine

You know I have found the words going round

they all say my feet never do touch the ground

What?

I am a good girl!

I aaaam a goooooood giiiirl!!!!!

Great Feeling

Sometimes when in love we give the person attention, we nurture them, we find every given possible way to make them feel loved, cared for, and of course constantly work with them to improve the relationship.

Since it is great to feel loved, respected, appreciated, and to know we have our better half backing us up 100% in everything we set out to do, and decisions we make, good or bad, knowing that someone will always be there to support us through thick and thin, not judge us for who we really are, accept and love our faults/imperfections as much as they appreciate our perfections and success...
It is what I wanted to give and gave in my last "relationship" affair.

Unfortunately there are people who believe because a person gives 100% of themselves to another and the relationship that they have become the center of their universe and probably do not have a life aside from them.

People are only as important in our lives as we make them out to be, the importance that we give that individual.  A person only matters if you make them matter...A person only have power over you if you allow them to.

Of course it is painful when any relationship ends, specially when there are feelings involved, but one thing probably this person forgot about me is the strength I have, the self love!
I love myself!
I respect myself!
and I appreciate the woman that I am!
It is the reason why I am able to love so deeply, because love is in me!

in the famous words of Frank Crane
"You will be deceived if you trust too much, but you will live in torment if you don't trust enough"
needless to say, I trusted too much.
but i also believe
"is better to have loved and lost than not to have loved at all"

I was hurting...
But for two days now a light went on!

The aches, the pain, the empty feeling have been replaced and almost non-existent.

What a great feeling!

mmmmm the things that are to come :)

...so sweet,

Thinking of the future,

Of amazing things to come,

I just want to thank Karma, and all the sweet delights that surrounds her!

Amazing, isn't it?

From SL to RL with much, much love
Punky and all the rest(s) of me!

To my Dear SL

I am sorry I have been putting you off, it is not my intention but at the moment RL is a bit of a priority to me.

I am happy to inform that the pain is less, although I still feel that certain sensation in my tummy when i log in it is getting better every day.

SL & RL will continue...at the moment I must prioritize...

:)

Still in love with my SL

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my cutie...my Asvid :)

she is just so petite

so innocent

so different

so beautiful

in her eyes she bares the sadness she carries inside at the moment :)

hehe, someone tried to collar her today...
step back gentlemen, this beauty is all mine :)
WhiteSilk and totally restricted!

From SL to RL 

The Real Asvid

Lately in SL and RP...

I have not been in the RP mood lately, which is one of the reasons I don't like to commit to any SIM, any groups, and to say the least to RP.

There are days I am too busy to log into SL

Things come up...

I was once committed to my Master and rearrange my schedule to fit his so we can spend time together since it was so restricted and limited.

Aside from that...I have not been doing so well, more quiet than ever and really don't feel like interacting much this days, RL and SL.

I sometimes log in hoping to be invisible...just play around with clothes, hair, shoes and pics...soon I might be changing the property, don't know to what, cause i am in love with this house, but might get a different living room set...

who knows, i have an awesome basement, so tasty for some torturing gadgets, yum yum...

have a Z day!!!

I can't wait....

I can't wait for time to pass by,

I can't wait for all just to be a memory,

I can't wait for the day i log in and it doesn't hurt

really, I can't wait...

I can't wait to think of him and feel nothing

I can't wait to wake up and not look at my email hoping to hear from him

I can't wait for the day when I wake up and he is not in my thoughts

really, I can't wait...

I can't wait to stop hurting,

I can't wait to stop crying,

I can't wait to stop loving him,

really, I can't wait

I can't wait...

for all of it just to be a beautiful memory

Really...I can't wait

From SL to RL
Asvid Aravir

Decorating for Christmas

hard

is the one word that comes to mind...

This Christmas is going to be hard in SL and RL.

I was going through the decorations and found our socks :(

Couldn't help the knot in my throat, and the emptiness in my heart and soul...the tears running down...I logged off, I couldn't handle it!

Today I am feeling much better :)

and the Christmas spirit on...I don't have as many decorations as I had at our old place in Marthas Vineyard...

Old house - Martha's Vineyard (MA)

hehe, but i do have a tree and a few decorations at the new place...

is cute, no snow, i need to find out how to do that...even though I don't mind living in a tropical place either...hehehe

Lonely from SL to RL
P