Out Dancing

I can say there are still some nice gentleman out there, respectful, smart and full of wonderful conversations!!

I built up enough courage and just went for it!!

I went to Sweethearts - they took out the boat, looks different.  Was not there for 5 minutes when a gentleman says hi and asks me to dance, reluctant at first I accepted and very glad I did!

Tre
Thank you for the evening of fun and laughs!

I like the way you view things and life, my dancing partner!!
We agreed if we bump heads in SL we are going out dancing!!

Because of time zone issues he had to go to bed...so I went SIM hopping!! looking for Jazz music of course!

I hopped to another SIM and there I met Hans, but after dancing for a while and talking it was only obvious he was there for one reason only....
yes, get laid

Still, had a great time, they had great music at that place!!

Great night in SL after all

Zroos

A bit more daring, getting out of the shell!

Trapped, no where out, no where to go...alone, afraid to go out into the world

caged in my emotions, unsure, which way to go, where to start, where to begin

In a box, wanting to get out, wanting to escape, to be more daring, to be more bold

and while I played around, pondering on what to do...



I sat, and still couldn't figure it out, I knew I looked fabulous, that is for sure

Moving from one place to another, nothing was coming to mind...scared to interact with others

Why if I am such a social butterfly in RL it is hard for me to actually just come out and be social in SL, i have my few friends, that no matter what life I take on, they will always be there.

Finally, after having my eyes closed for a while I decided to open them!



Everything was clear all around, even my mind!! I just went with my gut and oh what a wonderful night full of dance and conversations!!!



So I went out on the town......

Meet Asvid

MissE says "when I am feeling bleh, I want to get creative" so she creates different characters...

Some people to start out new, like the saying "get out with the old, get into the new" and since our old lives brings memories, we move on by creating different characters..

on 11/9/2012
Asvid Resident was born.

Why Asvid?  it is written in this blog already, it is the roleplay character name for Punky, I really wanted Atiya because it is a name I use often, even my RL blog, but someone had already claimed it "darn it"
Since I have been sporting the name Asvid for quite some time in SL I decided to give it a try, and it was available, lucky me!! i can get to claim a name I have used for like...I don't know 2 years by far :)

I know I can't erase the memories by creating a new av, but all the rest is a reminder of him, so I am going to start a bit fresh for now.
Of course my fave AV's will be logged in from time to time, like Kryystall, Cielo, Punky, Mayia, Aliexx, no doubt about that...i know is going to take time to adjust.

I know it is selfish of me to say, but I do hope we don't bump heads for now...I hope we are not logged in at the same time because I know exactly how I am going to feel...and honestly, I am weak when it comes to this man, although we are not together, I still wear his brand, and in some sorta way, i still feel his, I haven't even had the heart to remove my collars, and they will stay on, and they will remain under his name...that I don't want to change.

Back to creating, back to seen what mess I can get myself into, this time around in SL, I am going to be daring!!

from SL to RL
Asvid

Not the same

Is hard login in, a huge lump in my throat and a void in my tummy...the bad kind of butterflies...

Missing my Master very much...

SL is just a reminder of him, of us, and each AV reminds me of him...a history with him.

I am trying, I will try, and I will make it, is going to be alright although at this moment it doesn't feel like that.

My little heart aches

From RL
Punky

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