Almost that time

I suppose happiness is really never complete, we have our moments, days, but you honestly can't say you were happy for an entire year, just the burdens of our everyday life is enough to send us over the roof once in a while.

I try keep myself positive, after all I am an ENFP, we think we can change the world, we bring out the best in everyone, or at least try.  I am happy all the time, even on my down days a smile is a must, finding a way to lift my spirit...those days are usually when I am on PMS mode, I really do not look forward to that time of the month.

I am sure there are lots of women who probably feel the same way about PMS as I do, retaining water, cravings, emotional, headaches and my least favorite-mood swings.  I am just glad when I go through my withdrawals the ones that are close to me seem to know and recognize when something is wrong.
Most just let me be during those days, I become extremely quiet which is very unlike me, but I rather be quiet than say things that at the moment are not so nice; things that bother me that I don't discuss for one reason or the other just seem to boil on those days, they get the best out of me most times and usually I can control most negative feelings and emotions, so when I find myself in a situation when they are controlling me that is when I become very frustrated...this days have been the hardest for me for one reason or another.

I can't wait for these days to be over and be myself again, feeling completely out of my element.  My thoughts, which are the ones who keep me company all day are my worse enemy at the moment.

What a wreck!

Fixing up

I live in a very small apartment and was thinking of moving, while I was searching for apartments I noticed how hard it was to find one to my taste and most of all "budget", in the end I decided to remain where I am at, do not have the hassle of packing, unpacking, moving, having to put everything back together again, you know...all the tedious stuff that involves moving.

Don't get me wrong...I love the smell of a new place, I enjoy change and would absolutely love to move, but it is harder than I thought :( I will hold on until the time is right and a definite decision is made on my status with my Master and see what develops, I do have a plan B *grins* but that is a secret *hUsHsH*

In order for me to feel better I started to redecorate the place, some of the stuff I was going to throw away I fixed them up and recycled them *smiles* I am going room by room painting and making changes.  I went with bright and happy colors, I seriously need some happiness in my life at this moment.  Although the bathroom came out a bit darker than I thought I figured by putting extra lighting it might do the trick, yet I keep throwing in darker colors to give it some spark..hehehe..

I love to fix things, and often times find several uses for one piece...for instance, we had a desk and I was going to get rid of it, just so happen I needed a place to keep my bathroom gadget: blow-drier, flat irons, brushes, and other thingy wingys we use on a everyday basis.

I took the top off the desk and made two tables and created a top for it, as you can see in the picture below not a great job at the painting so I will blame the ex-husband for it *grins* .... really! he was the one who painted that thing..

Table 1 of 2

The second one I painted before I took the picture but it looked just like the one above...I matched it with the color of the wall and added an orange and brown to make it pop out :)

In the painting process

The green is called asparagus, when I take pictures of it in the bathroom it looks brighter...hummm?

job accomplished

:)

Excited

I am so looking forward to waking up *grins wide* it even hurts just to log off :(

Did a ton of research on certain area to help out Miss E, took some pics, crashed a few times, posted a pic in Koinup, updated my twitter...done much huh?  unfortunately is time to rest and wake up refreshed and ready to get down, multi-task between RL and SL this next few days! too bad I no longer have my laptop *cries* dang thieves!! anyways, wont do me any good to cry over spilled milk, whats done is done!

8 months

Kryytall Galaxy

time to rest!!