Almost that time

I suppose happiness is really never complete, we have our moments, days, but you honestly can't say you were happy for an entire year, just the burdens of our everyday life is enough to send us over the roof once in a while.

I try keep myself positive, after all I am an ENFP, we think we can change the world, we bring out the best in everyone, or at least try.  I am happy all the time, even on my down days a smile is a must, finding a way to lift my spirit...those days are usually when I am on PMS mode, I really do not look forward to that time of the month.

I am sure there are lots of women who probably feel the same way about PMS as I do, retaining water, cravings, emotional, headaches and my least favorite-mood swings.  I am just glad when I go through my withdrawals the ones that are close to me seem to know and recognize when something is wrong.
Most just let me be during those days, I become extremely quiet which is very unlike me, but I rather be quiet than say things that at the moment are not so nice; things that bother me that I don't discuss for one reason or the other just seem to boil on those days, they get the best out of me most times and usually I can control most negative feelings and emotions, so when I find myself in a situation when they are controlling me that is when I become very frustrated...this days have been the hardest for me for one reason or another.

I can't wait for these days to be over and be myself again, feeling completely out of my element.  My thoughts, which are the ones who keep me company all day are my worse enemy at the moment.

What a wreck!